Saturday, October 25, 2014

Messes and dares {Finishing Something}

"It's a really old city...stuck between the dead and the living."



"You said, remember that life is not meant to be wasted."

Sometimes I feel stuck between the dead and the living. My creative soul all dried up.

That song by Sara Bareilles always moves me for some reason.

"my earth is somebody's ceiling"

I am made alive, today, for a purpose?

Today with it's strange uncertainty?

We don't get a do-over with how we choose to live.

You'd think I would be able to be more daring knowing this, but instead I often pull back.

You'd think I'd be a hope-seeker all the times, but there are plenty of moments my world shrinks and I can only see what lies right in front of me.

You'd think I'd choose the loving stance even if it wasn't easy or didn't go well for me.

I come up short, though.

I'm glad life isn't a paint-by-number drawing, because by my count, I'm way off on number 25 of 31 so far.

I choose to count what I have and recognize what I am doing here, rather than play a numbers game.

It doesn't mean I don't need to keep going. I just told a friend tonight that my writing feels 'stale' right now, but that's a perfect time for a challenge, isn't it?

And by perfect, I mean, remember this, a lovely reminder by Anne Lamott in Bird by Bird:

"Your day's work might turn out to have been a mess. So what?..

"Messes are the artist's true friend. What people (inadvertently, I'm sure) forgot to
mention when we were children was that we need to make messes in order to find out who we are and why we are here -- and by extension, what we're supposed to be writing."

linking for five minute friday and 31 (minus several) days.

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    1. Kind of similar to the blog but trying to put some things together for teens- I think if I am still struggling at the end of this month I'm going to change to children's fiction though.:) sometimes I get on my own nerves with writing and apparently I picked an awesome topic for my lack of consistency this month. But nothing good comes easy, right ? Thanks for checking in! You should share your creative secrets for how you bust such wonderful stuff out all the time.:)

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  2. MMM, love this - "Messes are the artist's true friend." One of my art teachers once told me that I should never throw any of my drawings or paintings away. No matter how bad I thought they were, he said they would serve a purpose some day to show me just how far I had come. Perhaps this could apply to writing as well.
    *an FMF neighbor stopping by

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    1. Truth.
      I try not to delete writings because I never know what life they may take one day.
      Thanks for coming by, Debra!

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