Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Loosen the grip {Risk Rejection}

found you, night stars
on my film
all I see is one bright dot
amidst pure black


hopeless in room hope less
empty spaces
filled up with

floating by

the door is ajar

persistent yellow friends
you can't be tamed

fly away dandelion dust
 This week for #riskrejection, I decided to give myself permission to write free -- without rules or barriers and without feeling sorry for what came out of it. Sometimes I think my writing has to make sense to the world. And what results is years without doing something, like writing poems. So I thought I'd write -- and share a few with you.

I had lots of stories to tell you this week* -- because that's normally what I do. I tell stories because that's freeing, too, it lightens my load, and I want stories and laughter to lighten yours, too. But I'm realizing there's more to say.

It doesn't mean I won't tell you how my neighbors and I are planning a reality TV show, but today isn't that day. I kind of hoped today would be that day.

Today, taking a risk means loosening my grip on what my writing should look like.

Which in turn loosens my grip on what my life should look like.

Which is much scarier, somehow.

You know what I found out?

It's easier to tell you what makes me laugh than what makes me lose hope.
It's easier to speak of the light but I can't truly celebrate it unless I've unleashed the dark.
It's easier to tell you what I'm standing for than what I've had to fight for.

Might be obvious to you but it's a much needed reminder to me.

"We're all stumbling through the darkness.
No one can stay there and still make it through."

-"Good Light," Drew Holcomb and the Neighbors
May you embrace Light today, friends. And may you know that's risky enough.

*I made the cake! All I could do was a cake from the box, friends, but at least I baked it, and my friend ate it, and I am going to share it with some other people because that's the point of cake. I haven't gotten arrested yet but I'm in no hurry. In fact, I'm okay if I don't. I'll just have to be creative in some other way. :)

Don't forget to see what Amy and friends are up to and give them some love. Any people who choose to embrace this kind of risk-living are my kind of people.


  1. I love this! Flinging the rules aside and being free. Risking means putting a part of you out there. I enjoyed your free writing poem! And I've shared the same thoughts about trying to make poems make sense to the world. But it came out of you. There's beauty in it making sense to you. Really appreciated your take on this today! (Oh, by the way I love Drew Holcomb and the Neighbors!)

    Christy @ A Heartening Life

  2. I wanna hear more about the neighbor reality tv show - sounds fun!

  3. Replies
    1. Thanks, Mary! You too. Enjoying this process!

  4. And we've got ourselves a poet!

    So, one reason I don't write poetry is because I can't handle that I don't know the "rules". Surely there are rules. Writing like this scares me, but it also sounds fun.

    Oh, and I will need details of the reality show. Don't tease us like that!

    1. Thanks for cheering me on, Amy!
      Unfortunately, I don't think there are rules. That's why it's a risk for me, but I like it. ;) I find it IS more fun that way, somehow. And I'll be writing about the reality show next. ;)

  5. :) I like it when you let loose in your writing. (What kind of reality show are we talking about? Real housewives style?)

    1. Thank you! Great to hear from you.
      I can't even explain it in a comment.... it's not housewives in the least. I find us funny when we are together, but I'm not sure how we would appear to the general public. We will have to see.

  6. Writing unleashed...a great risk, for sure! Glad to see you embracing the challenge! Such beautiful poetry!

    1. Thanks, Jen! This month has been opening my eyes to lots of different writing and love seeing what everyone else is up to.

  7. Thanks for the encouragement. Yes, flinging the rules aside can be a struggle but one I continue to grow in letting go more and more when needed. And yeah -- Drew Holcomb and the Neighbors are awesome! :)