Mercy is in my face every time I sit down to click, click, click.
I needed a name for this blog some years ago, and I thought mercy sounded good. I thought mercy made sense. And as my vivid imagination should go, I pictured myself sitting down with a nice cup of tea writing about mercy all the time.
I don't really write about it all that much.
Because I can't find the words? Because I think I have to have the right words? Because mercy feels too big to explain? Because sometimes I have more questions than answers?
Sigh. Bottom line. I know I am in need.
God keeps teaching me I am not just in need if I am hurting and sick (these are true reasons I need Jesus, too though), but I also, very much would go my own way, if it weren't for Christ.
It kind of hit me the other day in a this-sounds-like-a-bumper-sticker but I really don't mean it like that way. I suddenly was hit with a ton of bricks after considering that I might be having an emotional allergy to this current season of my life and this thought came to my mind : I don't know where I would be without Christ.
Yep. Thank you, hard stuff. I love you for that, and please come back another day.
But, in true gerbil on the wheel form at this late hour, this brings me to the point of people in my life that are easy to love. I don't have to extend my hand out too far or put forth that much energy with them. It's a nice, peaceful kind of love, but it doesn't cost me too much.
God's love isn't like that. It's costly.
Costly, for us humans who like to think we are easy to love, the aim-for-perfection ones.
Preaching to the choir here. Former perfectionists anonymous, anyone?
Truth is, we are not easy to love all the time and we are not perfect.
Mercy is hard to grasp sometimes.
It's only when I remind myself that I am the one who is in need of Him, just straight up, because of who I am. Because I need Him to redeem the parts of me that are broken, not just by people and life and circumstance, but also my own selfish heart and the ways I think I know better.
"Let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin. Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need." - Hebrews 4
The thing is Jesus knows our weakness and He knows our suffering. I'm pretty sure I can count on that one; he came into this ridiculously messy world for us.
Instead of getting all caught up in what mercy is, pray with me that we can get all caught up in Who mercy is.
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