Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Things I've Seen in June

The end of May/beginning of June is all clumping together right now.

Nevertheless, here is a list of what I have seen and heard so far in June.

1 . (#201) A beautiful sunset after a storm



2. (#202) A place called Lumpy's

Honeysuckle, oatmeal raisin, cherry chip, some kind of trail mix, happy hippie.

Okay, so Lumpy's has an assortment of strange, fun names for ice cream but I only remembered happy hippie. Possibly because I like to talk about how swell it would be to live in the country someday, on a farm, with lots of trees, and maybe chickens, and walk around barefoot. I say these things as I wear a yellow sundress that makes me look like a dandelion.

{Thank you, Lumpy's worker who is also lactose intolerant, for reminding me that maybe eating a kiddie size ice cream wouldn't kill me.}
 
3. (#203) Today's quote from the devotional, Jesus Calling, by Sarah Young, and the reminder that it is His strength, not my own, that is my trust.

"Welcome challenging times as opportunities to trust Me. You have Me beside you and My Spirit within you, so no set of circumstances is too much to handle. When the path before you is dotted with difficulties, beware of measuring your strength against those challenges."

The way to walk through demanding days is to grip My hand tightly...
Regardless of the day''s problems, I can keep in perfect peace as you stay close to Me."

Isaiah 26:3

4. (#204) "Your Calling is Closer Than You Think." Relevant Magazine

This post has me on a rabbit trail of thoughts.

The other day I wanted to write a post called "The Art of Saying I Don't Know."

 Which may be why I love this quote...

"It takes discipline to say "I don't know." It takes faith to trust in one-day-at-a-time. It requires me to lay down my desperate, freakish desire for control and trust He is at work." -Karen Yates

But, also, I so often need to lay down my 'freakish desire for control.' 

Oddly enough, I've recently stopped saying 'I don't know' in reply to questions about the future. I have learned that when you say 'I don't know' when people ask you about what you hope to do, it seems you have no opinions. That's not true. I have quite a few.

I was talking to a friend of mine the other day, one of my very first friends I met the week I moved to North Carolina six and a half years ago (faithful friend!). And she told me how she looks at this season of her life in a way of not really knowing what to expect and how she's at a place of not trying to plan everything anymore. 

I understood that. There's something okay about that. Even though I still sometimes feel  I'm losing by living in the everyday. Deep down though, I'm learning it's okay; I'm learning to trust. 

Even though I still fear at times. Even though my 'freakish desire for control' wages war against me. Even though I want to trust in my own way. These things don't work. And don't bring life.

It doesn't mean never plan. It does mean I must change my expectation that something and everything should a certain way.

We are called to live in the place where God has us now.

I keep seeing how life comes after death. 

"Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds." John 12:24

Falling to the ground is not a welcomed place for me. I have been thinking a lot about what it is to fall to the ground and why this is hard. How I often use nice words and am hopeful that in falling down I still can repair the damage. But it's God who pulls me up from myself, and there, beautifully, He gives me life. 

After we are pulled from our self-sufficiency, we begin to see we cannot do things the old way. Sometimes we go back to what we think we need, but this never lasts. There is a letting go that happens, if we'll only receive, in His grace, to find what - who - we really need.

Sometimes living in the now looks or feels like a death, like something is lost. We think it is going to be all sunny days and when it's not, we wonder why. Everyday is often really good, but everyday can also (often) be hard.

You cannot just say you will choose to live in the everyday unless you acknowledge there are both.


5. (#205)  This band's sound

I like folk-ish music.

That's all.

I'm linking up with Emily for Imperfect Prose and Ann for Multitudes on Monday, to remember to look and see redemption (everywhere). Because the place I need to see it most sometimes is in this moment, and right in my own heart. 

5 comments:

  1. Julie,


    Nice to meet you. I'm hopping over from Ann's link up. Thanks for letting me peak into your gifts you were counting. I enjoyed the sunset shot too.

    Have a great week.

    Jennifer Dougan
    www.jenniferdougan.com

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  2. The joy wrapped up in June. Thanks for drenching me in thankfulness.

    Delighted to meet you today. I hope you don't mind if I splash around a bit to get to know you. This looks like a refreshing place to dip into goodness.

    Splashin.
    Sarah

    http://justsarahdawn.blogspot.com/2013/06/on-daddys-toes.html

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