"Thankfulness opens the door to My presence. Though I am always with you, I have gone to great measures to preserve your freedom of choice. I have placed a door between you and Me, and I have empowered you to open or close that door. There are many ways to open it, but a grateful attitude is one of the most effective."-Sarah Young, Jesus Calling
Life is not always tidy.
Although I might claim to be a free spirit of sorts, I can admit that I like certainty. But I'm realizing more and more that at least some chaos is a part of this life.
However, the impact of the chaos and trials can either leave you barely hanging on or leave you yearning for more. Still wanting more of life, more thankful, seeing that there is more to celebrate and praise. It might seem almost backwards at times, but I believe Jesus spoke to this thought when he described that he had come "that they may have life and have it abundantly." (John 10:10).
We are not promised that everything will be handed to us or to have material blessings in this life, but by knowing God and coming to see more of who he is, that is fullness of life. Sometimes, I see more of who God is through trials and suffering and even the crazy, hard days in life. It doesn't mean he doesn't know what He is doing when life is complex and the world or the people in it are going every which way. He does have a plan and I still see his mercy and love working in the lives of people I see everyday, as well as my own.
What about the days when you're stuck?
I can compare it to writing. When I sit down and consider the real joy I have with writing, and get beyond what leaves me stuck, or with a bad attitude at times, I see that what I'm left with is the stuff that writing is truly made of. Why it's important to me in the first place. Why I come back to it and push through and something changes in me again and again, every time.
But still, what if you're stuck?
I like what Shauna Niequist says, from one of my favorite books, Cold Tangerines.
"I get stuck because I try to map out every dip and turn, try to write an ending, literally and figuratively, before a beginning even exists."
"But little by little, when I start whre I'm stuck, over and over, getting stuck and unstuck, something cracks through, and life reveals itself to me like a scroll unfurling, and I write about it. I struggle against myself, and I write about it...I don't figure out the solution in a tidy way, and I don't have a sharp and clever revelation, but bit by bit, writing is starting to worm its way into the dailiness of my life and creating a home there."
Multitudes on Mondays (Tuesday)
-getting some tennis in (115)
-writing days (116)
-meeting up with a friend even in the thunderstorm! (117)
-God working out a day with a bad headache and healing it quickly (118)
-lots of outdoors time on the weekends, enjoying the beautiful nature and warm weather (119)
-hearing from my sweet friend who moved away (120)
-a lazy, cozy Sunday (121)
-time with some great friends and seeing the cute kiddos as they grow up too fast! (122)